Saiyaan...

I am waiting for her. She's called me up here by the beachside. The sun's setting slowly, so are my hopes. Everything's been normal these days, but I am able to comprehend the coming danger. I go again to the roller coaster ride of my emotions. I search for her.

"Mera dil khushi se jhoome, gaaye raat"

"pal pal mujhe dubayein, jaate jaate"

There she comes. How can she be so beautiful, good lord? Her eyes. 

***

"Hey, why don't you sing this for us?"

 "Come on, with so many people around, how can i?"

"Who's gonna listen to you, don't be shy."

"OK, then.. listen"

"Heere moti mein na chaahun"

"mein toh chaahun sangam tera"

"mein toh teri, saiyaan... tu hai mera.."

"Saiyaan........"

"Tu jo choole...."

Who is she...

"pyaar se..."

Ohh, look back, lady.. somebody is singing for you

"Aaram se mar jaon"

She turns... She turns...
Her eyes are, so heavenly. They are,... gateway to heaven. Good lord, help me!!

***

But she looks cold, giving a weak smile, letting out her thoughts. I look at her and I see what I feared the most. Her eyes give away and she understands it. Our mirrors show the truth but we refuse to speak. I steal a glance at the sun. 

"Look, I am sorry for everything but i am afraid, we have to stop here." 
"But, is this all?", "What about the other day?"
"We can't continue like this, can we?"
"We can work it out, right?"
"Can we, are you in your right minds or not?"

***

"Do you remember the day, when you sang that song?"
"Yes, how can I forget?"
"That was the moment when I fell for you, head over heels"
"And you are saying this to me, now? I knew it too."
"Nobody in right mind can sing the way you sang and, nobody in right mind can fall for you. I am hell, crazy about you."
"So am I. I Love you!"
"I love you too! My crazy man"

***

"Wait let me speak. What has happened to you? All these days, you were aloof, then all of a sudden, you ask me to meet and you say, I quit? Do I look unfaithful to you?"

  "No, it's nothing like that. You are a very good human. I still like you the way, I liked you before. But, it is not going to work. Leave it. We have already talked over and over again. I don't want to go through it all again"

"Tere naam se jude hai, saare naate."

"Saiyaan, saiyaaan"

"Don't start it again, you’re singing, I am not falling for it. You have lengthened it this long, no more please". "I have to go now, meet you someday."

"Bannke maala prem ki, tere tan pe jhar jhar jaon me"

"Baithu naiyaan preet ki sansaar se har jaon me..."

"YOU KNOW WHAT, THE UNDYING LOVE OF SHAHJEHAN FOR MUMTAZ WAS UNKNOWN TO A PERSON IN THIS WORLD, AND DO YOU KNOW WHO?"
 Listen to me for the last time, you heartless girl!!. 
 "MUMTAZ HERSELF."
She doesn't turn. There she goes, so the light of my life sunk into the salty waters.

"Saiyaan... Saiyaaaan"

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That was the last day when i repeated my most heart touching lines. I never sang it again. Saiyaan, it was for you, and only you.

Stunned

At the very first sight, he found something unusual in me. Moments turned into seconds. His gaze was fixed on me.  He followed me here and there. He was nearing me and my heartbeat was beating at a record pace. 

Complying to my feminineness, I bursted out – “Somebody help!! Somebody help me from this dog!!”

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This is my 55 word fiction non-fiction. I happen to be the “me” here and being stalked by a dog is something which I could never forget. An experience, I say. Will be back soon!!

First Love

When she said, “Come on, dear. He’s going to come today. Get ready.” Well, that was enough for the girl to jump high in the air and scream and shout. She kept on telling everybody who came across, “you know, I have seen him once, but I am going to meet him today, personally”. She was in the seventh heaven. She started imagining things about him. “How will he look like?”, “Will he even regard me as his equal?”, or “Am I even fit for him?”, “Will he love me?”, and what not!!

The destined hour came. He was standing at a far corner waiting for her to touch him, to monopolize him, to love him and above all, breathe life into him. She saw him, her body refused to obey, showing signs which were alien for her. They were near now, near enough to touch each other. Her hands moved involuntarily towards him, touching him. The sense of touch was enough for both of them to feel, to feel what their heart ached for, all these days. The magical moment grew longer and longer, their heartbeats synchronizing with the movement and the she felt at ease with him forgetting all her fears, prejudices. 

They came, they met and he left, promising that he will return soon to her. She was still red with excitement. Her mother came in and asked, “What’s the matter, dear? You look very changed.” She couldn’t hide her thoughts and she blurted out. Her mother listened patiently, remained uninterrupted and thought about her child. “How time flies… it is like, as if, it was yesterday only, she said her first word, it was yesterday only, she had her maiden walk, it was yesterday only, when she came in crying for her toy whose head got severed and today, she’s a big girl”, she thought. She was just a child for her, but her little girl found her true love, rather her “First love”. 

The bird is ready to fly from the cage, breaking all her protective sheath for her “first love”.

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Well, i am back again after more than a month. "First love" is close to my heart. I just can't say how it is like, when i felt it. Magical, like the wolf imprinting in Twilight series. It was almost the same and remembering it, the same feelings comes in and that's what i have tried to "write" here. "First Love's always the First"....