I
am waiting for her. She's called me up here by the
beachside. The sun's setting slowly, so are my hopes. Everything's been normal
these days, but I am able to comprehend the coming danger. I go again to
the roller coaster ride of my emotions. I search for her.
"Mera dil khushi se jhoome, gaaye raat"
"pal pal mujhe dubayein,
jaate jaate"
There she comes. How can she be so beautiful, good lord? Her eyes.
***
"Hey,
why don't you sing this for us?"
"Come
on, with so many people around, how can i?"
"Who's
gonna listen to you, don't be shy."
"OK,
then.. listen"
"Heere
moti mein na chaahun"
"mein
toh chaahun sangam tera"
"mein
toh teri, saiyaan... tu hai mera.."
"Saiyaan........"
"Tu
jo choole...."
Who is she...
"pyaar
se..."
Ohh, look back, lady.. somebody is singing for you
"Aaram
se mar jaon"
She turns... She turns...
Her eyes are, so heavenly. They are,... gateway to heaven. Good lord, help me!!
***
But she looks cold, giving a weak smile, letting out her thoughts. I look at her and I see what I feared the most. Her eyes give away and she understands it. Our mirrors show the truth but we refuse to speak. I steal a glance at the sun.
"Look, I am sorry for everything but i am afraid, we have to stop here."
"But, is this all?", "What about the other day?"
"We can't continue like this, can we?"
"We can work it out, right?"
"Can we, are you in your right minds or not?"
***
"Do you remember the day, when you sang that song?"
"Yes, how can I forget?"
"That was the moment when I fell for you, head over heels"
"And you are saying this to me, now? I knew it too."
"Nobody in right mind can sing the way you sang and, nobody in right mind can fall for you. I am hell, crazy about you."
"So am I. I Love you!"
"I love you too! My crazy man"
***
"Wait
let me speak. What has happened to you? All these days, you were aloof, then
all of a sudden, you ask me to meet and you say, I quit? Do I look unfaithful
to you?"
"No, it's nothing like that. You are a very good human. I still like you
the way, I liked you before. But, it is not going to work. Leave it. We have
already talked over and over again. I don't want to go through it all
again"
"Tere naam se jude hai,
saare naate."
"Saiyaan, saiyaaan"
"Don't start it again, you’re singing, I am not falling for it. You have lengthened it this long, no more please". "I have to go now, meet you someday."
"Bannke maala prem ki,
tere tan pe jhar jhar jaon me"
"Baithu naiyaan preet ki
sansaar se har jaon me..."
"YOU KNOW WHAT, THE UNDYING LOVE OF SHAHJEHAN FOR MUMTAZ WAS UNKNOWN TO A PERSON IN THIS WORLD, AND DO YOU KNOW WHO?"
Listen to me for the last time, you heartless girl!!.
"MUMTAZ HERSELF."
She doesn't turn. There she goes, so the light of my life sunk into the salty waters.
"Saiyaan...
Saiyaaaan"
That was the last day when i repeated my most heart touching lines. I never sang it again. Saiyaan, it was for you, and only you.
