2011 - looking back!

Well, well... 2011 gonna end very soon!! Another year going and coming.. A complete year of my life.. What a phase it was... mostly devoted to self discovery... and succeeded to a certain level. The year started with a new session and ending with the fear of the next new session.. :D .. not literally "fear" ..
                    2011 was very good, beyond my expectation.. It went well.. 8 out of 10? yeah... that's enough.. it wasn't awesome but it was "awesome" .. :) new friends, new places, old people with new faces etcetera.. et cetera.. ahem ahem... The year was academically good, well this is something that seldom happens.I took great risks and waiting for certain risk's outcome...
I missed great movies, missed great books... missed things other than academics and spent most of the year's holidays lazying around, doing "nothing" , or even if doing , doing it with least efficiency...
Socially i was not very involved with people. I lost contacts with many, got new(ooold) contacts , thanks to my certain skills. I was alone most of the time, or just with a very few of my friends.
Read lots of books.. increased my non-sleeping hours, watched a good amount of movies and chilling alone.
Well, seeing it or globally, it was not so good... i mean great people died.. unhappy things happened .. but the highlight was "justice", which was almost done in certain cases.

Happening tags of the year-
1. World cup
2. Population
3. Corruption
4. Apple
5. Celebs in jail
6. CWG
7. Path-breaking movies
8. End of HP era
9. AB( Celeb)
10. IAC

2012 gonna start soon... my resolutions are- ( yearly ritual)..
1. Not to tell lies
2. Study harder
3. Less time in FB
4. More concentration in photography.
5. Behave properly
6. Attendance 100%
7. Get in shape :/
8. Last but not the least... never again to make resolutions.. and even if made don't follow those which are not in your favour. 

A Face...

A face which can never be forgotten, a face which is not common, A face which changes your line of thought and the face which makes you happy and make you live your life .
Well, i am not good in remembering faces like a few of my friends who are too good in it, but this face remains still.
I saw this face many many years ago, say the previous ke previous decade, so this face was not used to play-station or CN or other things introduced by this present century. The face was neither handsome nor beautiful but it was the cute.
The person who held that face was not aware of the world that lay ahead but was the master of its own world. The face looked innocent but was not so. The face looked naughty for its age but was not so. It was mischievous and all its mischief were forgiven because no one believed that the face can create such things too. The face owned the people , people obeyed did what it wanted to. A single drop on the face and lo! it was enough to bring the world down.
It was young but its heart was a bit way ahead. Now when i remember the face, my line of thoughts change.
It was bad as well as good but its goodness was so pure that its bad-ness can be ignored because the face was too ignorant of things which it did.
Thinking about the face, i remember Ruskin Bond's lines. Well, i couldnt find those lines but its explanation is as follows-

The boy’s attention was caught by the face of a ‘bright boy’.
 This boy waved out to him from the window of a passing train.
 The poet took a great liking to him and for many years, looked for him wherever he went.
Throughout his life, the poet experiences such loneliness that he keeps returning to the railway
cutting and keeps searching for the face ‘in cities and villages’ and in ‘crowds at distant places’.

The poet searches for the face throughout his life but i my case i know , that face is never going to return. Whether the face has taken its face off the earth or has the face gone hidden behind various masks which we wear everyday, i dont know. But i know the face will not return.
The face was fresh as the morning dew.. cute as a few days old pup.
 The eyes, ohh god! as big as blackberries and as bright as a so-so watts bulb...
bright as if seen something dearer to life...
Its teeth were the most beautiful one.. shiny white and small looking like pearls...
 The look remains the same the whole day.
The voice as sweet as honey always talking in a sing-song manner
and the dialect, ohh... nothing can be sweeter than that in the whole world.
The cute, the cuddly, the chubby, always happy, always smiling face cannot be forgotten.

I wish the face came back...
I wish...

Rage!

A few minutes ago, "murderous rage" would have been an understatement. All parts of my body shouting "kolaveri"... what started as a  beautiful moonlit (lunar eclipse-d) evening turned into something i don't appreciate much. but now this evening was the best of all. i mean, in a chilly night
at 11 riding your bike at 60 kmph and you never stopping shivering is indeed something nice.
Back to the main point,Whenever i discuss the topic below, my blood boils and i donot even care about with whom i am talking. This is a very sensitive topic for me.... GOD and the God-Man...
What is religion? According to me, its just different paths to reach a single place. Tha paths may be different, but the goal si same. People forget this very thought sometime.
According to wiki, Religion is a collection of cultural systems, belief systems, and worldviews that establishes symbols that relate humanity to spirituality and, sometimes, to moral values.
What is God?
Some say he exists and some say he doesnt. I say he exists. According to me, God is the creator of everything. I cant define everything because it is beyond my imagination.
According to wiki, God is most often conceived of as the supernatural creator and overseer of the universe.
 The most common among the qualities of God include omniscience (infinite knowledge), omnipotence (unlimited power), omnipresence (present everywhere),
omnibenevolence (perfect goodness), divine simplicity, and eternal and necessary existence.( A few words are very complicated to me)
As people donot see god very easily, we tend to believe a lots of myth, misconceptions, beliefs, the most important - the so-called godman et cetera related to god.
The reason for my murderous rage was a discussion and lateron the involvement of somebody who believes in god-man. Well, i cannot say whether they are true or not but i don't believe a few of them whom i came across. I have read a few works of these kind of god-man. It says , this material world is a place
where we are not required to dwell for ages( ie. many births). Its not good thing to remain here, one should joint the holy abode. And for that we are supposed to live a life of a hermit. Desires are the root cause of our sufferings in this world(This is partly true) but my question is- Why not have a desire, if one is not having a desire then his life is a standstill. If somebody doesn't desire for things then how could he attain the comforts or at least the basic necessities of life.Since we are born here, it is required that we exploit the resources available and make our living simpler.
The same thing Sir Rabindranath Tagore said- When the god has given this beautiful world like this , then why is man running and hiding inside the hut of a hermit? Looks like a few are afraid to face the hard world.
They say- We should live a life of austerity so that our after-life is more beautiful. My view is-
ok , live a life of austerity ....but we shouldn't make our life miserable just because for our after-life. We shouldn't do any wrongdoings or things which are right but are against the austerity rule
 else we will be any lowly creature in our next life. We as humans remember everything but we can't remember our previous lives, so is the case of 84 lakh species.
Does a cockaroach think that ohh , what a life i am leading just because of my previous life! :(  we dont know but for it, its own world is heaven.
 Same is for humans, we regret , we curse our luck but still we feel that destiny has given me what i deserve and hence move on.
We are following a religion which never belongs to us, we go to temple, mosque, church etc just because we see our elders going. We are just copying and that gradual copying makes us believe that i belong to that religion , this religion and we turn passionate towards it and later become a religious fanatic.
We never explore the religion to which we belong. okay we read the scriptures, but the thing is do we follow it? If a man follows the scriptures, then he is just the purest soul. Many good things are written in the scriptures , we don't follow it because it is very hard to follow , so for the easy way round people tend to follow a "GOD-MAN" , a kind of shortcut for achieving whatever we want without the harder part. But the truth is - we don't get anything from them, just misery..
I hear people saying - go there, u will be free from this materialistic cravings, go there they will teach u how to live ur life. What i say is- This is my life, why should i learn to live form somebody else. We have our conscience, which is a kind of an organization of its own. We know whether we are doing right or wrong. We know whether we should do a thing or not. We are aware of what we are doing. Just reading scriptures doesnt make a person responsible and by the way the scriptures speaks the same things which are fundamental and which is taught to any human since birth in simple terms. If we follow the things which
looks simple then there is no requirement of any outside person to teach how to live life. Our conscience is a watchdog, we cannot escape from it. The number of god-men is increasing in various folds. Looks like its the best profession, u don't require a degree, a financial backup , nothing. Just say something
and lo! u r the god itself!


PS- I am not pointing towards a selected audience of god-men. These are my views and this is meant for those who are conning people and not to those who are doing something real good for the public.

Dated- 10th Dec. 2012